Why this feeling?

This feeling is making me crazy. It's numbing but disturbing... The sound of airplanes taking off wakes me up... One minute I'm laughing and another minute I'm silenced up... I just wanted to do something to keep my mind off my dream, to let me rest for a while from thinking why or what should I do next. This race in my mind is tiring. I have to lay this dream down and quietly wait for my time...